I AM THE WORST BLOGGER IN THE WORLD

I'm pretty much the worst blogger in the world and I am extremely sorry if you decided to invest your time into checking this out at all. So there is my groveling and self-deprecating apology to you.

What have I been up to recently?

Well, I watched Spring Breakers, and strangely enough to my own surprise I fucking loved it. So so so so so much. So much so, that is haunted my thoughts for a complete week and convinced me to change my zine idea completely (But hey, it's all experimental anyway). It's now going to be called Love Letters to Cinema: (insert title and long subject)  and it's just going to be personal essays on cinema. Hopefully these interest anyone really, because instead of being technical and nitpicky, I'm going to have some freedom and fun with these, weaving in personal experiences and connections to philosophy or art or other cinema. I'm a freak. Above are some teaser photos. So I guess I've been working on that.

What else have I been up to...

My holidays I pretty much did nothing. I 'attempted' to study but not much was done. I went to my friend's bach (beach house) just for one night and it was surprisingly fun. I felt uncomfortable with 80% of the people going but to be honest it wasn't as bad as I had imagined. I thought it was going to be a Lost in Translation moment where I would feel painfully lonely surrounded by people. But yeah it was pretty good. It was Orchard's birthday. (Happy Birthday if you're reading this) so we (actually, Patricia) made masks of Korean boys (some idols which I couldn't identify) and surprised her. It was ubs cute.

I've been feeling pretty restless these days. I think it's a natural young adult late teen instinct, drilled into us from centuries of party loving cavemen and feasting knights and whoever else in history wanted to have fun. I just want to go out and enjoy every moment (as opposed to being locked up in a dusty room). It sucks. Sometimes I just want to experience it all. While I can, and soak up everything and see things with new eyes and a clear mind. Or am I going gonzo crazy I don't know.

I'm slowly meeting some pretty interesting people in biomed. It's strange though, because these people were just acquaintances last semester that I slowly just talked to more. I just I needed short term gratification haha. And I've started to self-diagnose myself with mental disorders via wikipedia which probably wasn't the best idea in hindsight and genuinely got worked up over things (even though a piece of me does feel this way still), alas, take me as I am whatever. (And sorry Jahn for being a emotional trainwreck)

I'm pretty much 3 weeks behind on all my papers so I should probably hustle. Laters gators.